Hello Again...

It's been a while since I have written on here. I have been sorting through a lot in my mind, trying to get it in order. But if I am being completely honest, my mind will never be in order; it will forever run on chaos, which I'm okay with. Makes life exciting, right? At least to me, it does.

Anyway, I've been wanting to write about my goals on here for the new year, but my motivation was shot. Slowly, it has been returning, so here is the list! I will try my best to keep up with it and keep you all updated.

New Year Resolutions!!

1. Trying new things every couple weeks (this could be small things to trying new recipes to whole new experiences.)

2. Read 20 books

3. Write more, finish a story

4. Build more muscle

5. Learn more Korean

I might add more or edit my goals as the year goes on, but this is my list so far. This year I'm going to get out of this comfort shell I have hidden in for far too long. This year I will be expanding my life to what it should be; I want to live, not just be alive. I am 23 years old, and I didn't think I would make it this far, so I want to live it to the fullest.

For the new experiences goal, this will help me push my comfort line. Recently, I have been trying a new fashion look, trying to look more grown-up. I'm trying to look for new things or hobbies to try. I think if I do start to try more fun stuff, I may start a video blog of some sort to share with everyone.

I want to read and write more! I am such a sucker for love stories. I am currently writing one, not sure if I will ever post it or share it with anyone, but it makes me happy when I write it. I need to read more, get off my phone, dive into my book to escape the reality of life, and focus on some stupid love story that will never happen to me.

For building muscle, I work in a very laborious job where being stronger will help out a lot, but feeling better about my body and keeping up with my health will also be nice. If I'm not working, I'm sitting on my butt doing nothing. I want to move more that isn't just moving for my work.

For learning Korean, my best friend is moving to South Korea at some point this year to live out their dream, which makes me so happy and proud of them, but I will miss them. I guess that means I will have to visit! I want to learn for a better travel experience. They also recently got me into K-pop, so understanding the lyrics would be nice too. I liked the funky beats at first, but getting to know the members of the groups from videos made me enjoy the music more.

The start of the new year was rough, I won't lie. My heart was hurt by people I loved and trusted. I was hating myself because of how others viewed me. I struggled with words and actions that had been done by others. I have taken a step back and am trying to remove myself from those toxic situations. What others say and do is not true; it's just something they do to try to make themselves feel better and try to one-up themselves. That's fine by me. If you think putting someone else down will put you ahead, then you go right ahead. Karma will get you while I sit in a better place. This year is the year of the snake, and I'm a snake. What do snakes do? We shed the ugly stuff off. So I'm shedding every negative and ugly thing you have said or done to me. I will keep shining bright and growing.

This is my year; my last fuck was left in 2024. Bring it on 2025!